Are you Suffering in Silence?

I want to share a little story....

This story took place between 2010 and 2012, when I actually thought that I was a super woman, a super-mom, because I was doing all the things.

During this time, I had 2 kids at home. They were under the age of 4. I had left my teaching career. I had a successful network marketing business. I was president of the mom's club. I was active, taking my kids to every activity, music, swim...anything  I could find to do...we were doing it.

I was trying to keep up with the housework, the cooking, the cleaning, and people would actually say to me, you are a super-mom, how do you do all these things?

I even got an award one time for being the best multi-tasker. At the time, I thought it was amazing because I was being acknowledged for doing so many things well.

I actually wore it like a badge.  Thinking I am a super mom. I did it all really well until I didn't.

You see from the outside it looked like I was doing all the things right all the time. But when I came home, all those things still needed to get done.  All the jobs I had put on my list of things to do.

I was actually crumbling.

I was struggling in silence because I thought, This is what a good mom does. She does all of these things. And why didn't that make me happy and fulfilled at night? I just didn't understand. This is what I wanted. My whole life was to be a mom.

I would go into my bathroom or bedroom or closet, and I would cry.  Not knowing how I was going to do it all.  How was I going to keep up with this pace and this facade that I had built for myself?  

I was so overwhelmed.

I finally asked myself...At what cost?

The cost was me. I was losing my spirit, I was losing my joy. I was losing my cool way too much.  I was losing sleep, and I was getting resentful to the people in my life because they were 'getting' to do things that I wasn't. And this is one of the first times when I realize that I was struggling in silence. 

Are you suffering in silence?

Are you telling little white lies every day to yourself, your friends, your kids, your partner?

Are you saying things like:

I’m fine

It’s ok

I can do it

I’ll get it done

Sure, I can take on that task, volunteer position, carpool, etc….

Instead of saying I’m not ok.

I’m struggling.

I’m hurting.

I’m lonely

I can’t do 1 more thing.

I need help

We are suffering in silence every day, but we don’t have to. 

👉🏻You don’t have to feel alone, lost, stuck where you are in life. 

👉🏻You want to feel better but you aren’t sure how to break free from the walls you have built up in your mind. 

Step one to ending the suffering is to be aware of it.

I think the more we talk about it, the more we will start to heal ourselves.